I am that girl. You know the one...the one who has really great advice about how to be successful but doesn’t actually do any of the things herself. Here is the deal, the list below works for me. When I do it I am bang on. I get results. I feel better about myself. Right now I am in limbo just trying to survive until the divorce is final so I can fully move forward. It is not that I am sad about the divorce because I am not. It is that I still feel tied to this really un-awesome chapter. I want to close that chapter and start a new one. I will write more about that on Monday…
My Success List
1. Do something you enjoy. If you don't love it…then it won't last. I dance and ride my bike.
2. Set mini goals and tell people about them. Big giant goals seem scary and unachievable. I chose to write a blog to fulfill this one. Make sure if you do it that you write it for yourself. It is your journey.
3. Buy good workout clothes. A fantastic sports bra and great shoes can make a world of difference. You can also use buying more as a reward.
4. Change your eating habits FOREVER. Diets don't work. Ever. I eat now what I plan on eating once I reach my goal...only a little less of it. Write is down. Some things sound really great to eat but my desire to write down that I ate it often keeps me from eating it.
5. Allow yourself cheats but be very selective about what and how often. I love ice cream but I can't have any in my freezer. If is it there I eat it. Period. I know this about myself so if I am in the mood for it I stop by McDonalds and get a small cone for like 90 cents.
6. Don't drink soda. Every now and then I go through bouts where I drink it and I always crave sweets WAY more when I do. I substitute sparkling water with a bit of juice and it is yummy! (It was hard to get used to at first because I kept expecting soda.)
Friday, October 30, 2009
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
That’s What I’m Talking About
Every year my company puts on a health fair. They do blood work, weigh you, and talk to you about checking for cancer. Last year my numbers were okay but this year the nurse doing my blood work was very excited to see numbers like mine. It made me feel good to hear that! Also, pretty much everything that was supposed to be lower is and everything that could have been higher is. Here is where I am at:
Blood Pressure preferred: <120/<80 mmHG
2008 – 126/80
2009 – 110/72
Total Cholesterol preferred: Less than 200 mg/dl
2008 – 147
2009 – 149
HDL preferred: Greater than 40 mg/dl
2008 – 52
2009 – 67
Glucose preferred: <100 (Fasting)
2008 – 81
2009 – 97
The glucose concerns me a bit just because it went up so much and is close to being above the recommended number. I will have to research that a bit. I did have HDL envy though because one of the girls in my office had a level of 99. Boo. I want that.
Blood Pressure preferred: <120/<80 mmHG
2008 – 126/80
2009 – 110/72
Total Cholesterol preferred: Less than 200 mg/dl
2008 – 147
2009 – 149
HDL preferred: Greater than 40 mg/dl
2008 – 52
2009 – 67
Glucose preferred: <100 (Fasting)
2008 – 81
2009 – 97
The glucose concerns me a bit just because it went up so much and is close to being above the recommended number. I will have to research that a bit. I did have HDL envy though because one of the girls in my office had a level of 99. Boo. I want that.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Did That Just Happen Out Loud?
As I was getting ready for work at the gym after working out one of the mornings last week I was chatting with another gal who was doing the same. We talked about work, her school, how long she had lived in Phoenix, etc… When she finished getting ready she looked at me and said, “I know I started before you but I beat you!” All I could do was stare after her as she walked away. Then I looked around to see if anyone else had just heard what she said. I wanted to shout, “Did that just happen out loud?” Why did she care? When did us getting ready become a competition? The fascinating part is she had already showered, gotten dressed, and was blow drying her hair when I came into the locker room. There was no way, even if I wanted to, I could have beaten her.
Why do we, as females, feel compelled to compete with each other doing simple things like getting ready for work in the morning? I used to be quite competitive. I wanted to win at EV-ERY-THING. I even wanted to win at the games I played with my family. I remember a defining moment when I was around 23. My family plays this dice game and my older sister was so upset about not winning that she and I got in a screaming match. I stormed out of the house and left. That’s when it hit me. You’re a freaking adult fighting with you sister about a game of dice. That night I stopped caring. Oh, don’t get me wrong, winning still feels awesome but it isn’t my end all be all anymore. I am completely content walking away the “loser” with my dignity still in tact.
Why do we, as females, feel compelled to compete with each other doing simple things like getting ready for work in the morning? I used to be quite competitive. I wanted to win at EV-ERY-THING. I even wanted to win at the games I played with my family. I remember a defining moment when I was around 23. My family plays this dice game and my older sister was so upset about not winning that she and I got in a screaming match. I stormed out of the house and left. That’s when it hit me. You’re a freaking adult fighting with you sister about a game of dice. That night I stopped caring. Oh, don’t get me wrong, winning still feels awesome but it isn’t my end all be all anymore. I am completely content walking away the “loser” with my dignity still in tact.
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Patrick of Optimum Sports Performance wrote a response to my post yesterday. He asked if he could quote what I wrote and I assumed he was going to edit it a bit. You know...take out the part about the pole dancing. Nope. It is a great article though despite my quote. Check it out here.
Searing Loss
Have you ever felt searing loss? I have. Today in fact. To me it kinda feels like your heart being shattered into a million pieces followed by an emptiness you didn't think was possible. Sound juvenile? It should. I finally dealt with a dream that I had held onto from the age of 15 that I, up until recently, never acknowledged. The details don't really matter but the outcome does. Until I fully feel and let go I won't be able to move forward. After I confronted the situation head on I met with a friend to talk about it. They said that the bigger the hope or dream the larger the disappointment when it doesn't happen. She was 100% correct. There was no real reason for me to believe it to be so and there is certainly no good reason for me to want it to be so now but that doesn't matter. The hurt is real and it is there waiting to be dealt with. I hate these sneak attacks and I certainly have gotten my fair share of them lately. Wish me luck!
Saturday, October 24, 2009
You Don't Know What You Don't Know Until You Know It
Do you ever stop and think about the reasons that you do or don't do something? I don't. I just go about my business doing whatever is comfortable and natural. For example, I met with Patrick (that man knows his sh*t) this morning and WOW! WOW! WOW! My left hip and shoulder have always kinda bothered me. No real reason behind it. No injury that I can remember. They just hurt sometimes. Well...he was asking me a series of questions during his assessment and asked me how my shoulder felt when I did bench press. I drew a complete blank. Why you ask? Because I couldn't remember the last time I had done a regular bench press. They hurt so I don't do them. Funny huh? Same thing for my hip. I somewhat modify all of the moves that use my hip so there is less pressure on it but that ends up making me do them incorrectly and puts me in danger of injuring myself.
In the end, Patrick stripped away everything that I am doing right now in the gym and is having me focus on getting mobility in the parts and places I don't have it. He said some clever line that I can't remember. It was something like "healthy muscles don't hurt" or something like that. He also taught me a little bit about foam rolling. (It was awkward having to explain to him why I couldn't do some of the moves on my right side because of my giant bruise from my pole dancing class. Mention that and either the conversation gets awkward or the guy gets uncomfortably interested. Luckily it was the first because the second kinda sucks. I digress...) Some of the moves were the "oh! That hurts so good" kind and others were like "SOB! That does not feel awesome at all!" Not in a I think I just injured myself kind of way but in I have never moved my body like that because it isn't comfortable kind of way. I highly recommend that everyone go see him. Seriously. It is nice to figure out that the reason push ups aren't that comfortable for me is because the shoulder is tight not because I am a giant pansy. (Well that and the cyst thing.)
Last night was the first event for my 10 year high school reunion. I wasn't looking forward to it at all. In fact, I was kinda dreading it. Anyway, my best friend, Becca, from high school and I arrived at the bar and Oy! We got hot and everyone else got fat. I have always struggled with my weight. (I was put on diet pills when I was 16 if that says anything to ya'.) I never felt like I fit in when I was in high school and now I am like who cares. So many people have never gone anywhere, done anything, or experienced anything. I used to compare myself to these people?! Madness. I decided that I am going to go to the event tonight. I was fun catching up with so many of the people I forgot about. Becca and I left early because of my appointment and her disappointment. When we got to my place we checked out my yearbook and read all of these K.I.T. notes and messages. Crazy how you think that you will never forget high school and all of the people in it when in reality I didn't remember most of the people or stories at all.
In the end, Patrick stripped away everything that I am doing right now in the gym and is having me focus on getting mobility in the parts and places I don't have it. He said some clever line that I can't remember. It was something like "healthy muscles don't hurt" or something like that. He also taught me a little bit about foam rolling. (It was awkward having to explain to him why I couldn't do some of the moves on my right side because of my giant bruise from my pole dancing class. Mention that and either the conversation gets awkward or the guy gets uncomfortably interested. Luckily it was the first because the second kinda sucks. I digress...) Some of the moves were the "oh! That hurts so good" kind and others were like "SOB! That does not feel awesome at all!" Not in a I think I just injured myself kind of way but in I have never moved my body like that because it isn't comfortable kind of way. I highly recommend that everyone go see him. Seriously. It is nice to figure out that the reason push ups aren't that comfortable for me is because the shoulder is tight not because I am a giant pansy. (Well that and the cyst thing.)
Last night was the first event for my 10 year high school reunion. I wasn't looking forward to it at all. In fact, I was kinda dreading it. Anyway, my best friend, Becca, from high school and I arrived at the bar and Oy! We got hot and everyone else got fat. I have always struggled with my weight. (I was put on diet pills when I was 16 if that says anything to ya'.) I never felt like I fit in when I was in high school and now I am like who cares. So many people have never gone anywhere, done anything, or experienced anything. I used to compare myself to these people?! Madness. I decided that I am going to go to the event tonight. I was fun catching up with so many of the people I forgot about. Becca and I left early because of my appointment and her disappointment. When we got to my place we checked out my yearbook and read all of these K.I.T. notes and messages. Crazy how you think that you will never forget high school and all of the people in it when in reality I didn't remember most of the people or stories at all.
Friday, October 23, 2009
Should be Interesting
I am SUPER excited for tomorrow morning. I have an appointment with Patrick of Optimum Sports Performance. Oh! Oops! I don't think I announced this here yet but I decided to do the Rock ‘n’ Roll half marathon in January. I have a couple months to train for it so I should be fine. Sorry! Anyway, Patrick is going to give me the once over and point me in the right direction. When we were emailing back and forth he used some terms that I had no idea what he was talking about. I explained talking to him like the following in a forum I belong to, “You know when you talk to someone who really knows their stuff and they say things that you aren't quite sure what they mean but you kinda pretend like you do so you don't sound completely dumb but then end up looking it up later.” Well, it was like that.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
DEFAULT HEARING SET
Oh. My. Gosh. I almost get to use my divorce purse. It has been hanging on my coat rack taunting me since Labor Day. Oh gosh. Oh gosh. Oh gosh.
Every now and then I get some crazy idea that I need to try stuff I don’t like. A good example is I used to hate tea. Hot or cold it didn’t matter. I am now to the point where I really enjoy hot but cold still makes me gag. Yet I continue to try it in the hopes that one day I won’t find it revolting. I recently did the same thing with raisins. I have hated raisins for as long as I can remember and then the other day I ate some and voila! I didn’t hate them. In fact, I found them quite enjoyable. In fact, I am eating them right now. Yum!
Every now and then I get some crazy idea that I need to try stuff I don’t like. A good example is I used to hate tea. Hot or cold it didn’t matter. I am now to the point where I really enjoy hot but cold still makes me gag. Yet I continue to try it in the hopes that one day I won’t find it revolting. I recently did the same thing with raisins. I have hated raisins for as long as I can remember and then the other day I ate some and voila! I didn’t hate them. In fact, I found them quite enjoyable. In fact, I am eating them right now. Yum!
I find it fascinating how our tastes change. One thing I have really been itching to try lately is beer. I know. I know. If you don’t like it why try it over and over? This one is a bit different. Anytime I think about or smell beer it brings up really bad memories. I am figuring if I get to the point where I can somewhat stand it then maybe just maybe it won’t have power over me like it does now. It can take me from a good mood to bad in about 1 second. I was given the recommendation to try Blue Moon. The person thought that the orange slice might trick me into thinking it is a girly drink. I haven’t quite worked up the courage to give it a go. Still thinking on this one…
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
You Have Got To Be Kidding Me
I bailed from work around 1 and was in bed asleep by 1:30. I slept most of the day away. I think I kicked whatever I was trying to get. Phew! I headed to the gym this morning and Oy! Everything seemed sooooooooooooo heavy. I made it through my workout, showered, did my hair and makeup, and started to get dressed. I was all good to go from the waist up and then…what the heck…where are my pants?! That’s right. I left them at home. I had 2 options. 1. Head home and get them which would have made me an hour late to work or 2. Buy new ones at the only place open at 7:00am. Yup. Walmart. I put my gym pants back on and headed over. $11 later I landed a pretty awesome pair if I must say so myself. I kinda want them in black as well.
I can't believe I forgot to write about this! MUM has a blog named Kid’s Say the Darndest Thing and let me tell you…they do. Especially hers. My niece and nephew are the cutest kids on the planet. I went to MUM’s place on Monday night and I was greeted by my dang cute nephew at the door. My niece on the other hand was no where to be found so I looked around until I spotted the “tent”. The tent is a card table covered in a blanket that MUM set up. Isn’t that neat? Anywho, I made my way over after realizing that is where my niece was and climbed in. I’m not sure if you are aware or not but there is not much room under one of those tables. I had to fold myself up a bit to fit. We sat there a second staring at each other and then she proceeds to tell me she likes my hairs. (Yes, she said hairS) She said she didn’t like it when it was white…that I didn’t look like Aunt Kaffy. I almost died laughing. I don’t know what it is about that girl. She owns me. I would color my hair purple to please her and that is my least favorite color.
I can't believe I forgot to write about this! MUM has a blog named Kid’s Say the Darndest Thing and let me tell you…they do. Especially hers. My niece and nephew are the cutest kids on the planet. I went to MUM’s place on Monday night and I was greeted by my dang cute nephew at the door. My niece on the other hand was no where to be found so I looked around until I spotted the “tent”. The tent is a card table covered in a blanket that MUM set up. Isn’t that neat? Anywho, I made my way over after realizing that is where my niece was and climbed in. I’m not sure if you are aware or not but there is not much room under one of those tables. I had to fold myself up a bit to fit. We sat there a second staring at each other and then she proceeds to tell me she likes my hairs. (Yes, she said hairS) She said she didn’t like it when it was white…that I didn’t look like Aunt Kaffy. I almost died laughing. I don’t know what it is about that girl. She owns me. I would color my hair purple to please her and that is my least favorite color.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Not Everyday is Perfect...
Ugh. I slept in today...no gym. I feel like I have been beat with a lead pipe. I was supposed to have a gym appointment last night but when I got there he took one look at me and sent me home. I am achy and tired. Maybe I am getting sick or maybe it is all of the emotions from this weekend finally catching up with me. Either way I feel terrible. I really want to just go home and sleep the rest of the day away.
Monday, October 19, 2009
Dear October #2
Dear October,
Here is the great thing about goals: they can change. (I learned that this weekend.) So I am changing your direction as follows:
1. Have quiet time every day. This needs to be just as, if not more than, important to me then my exercise time. It has always taken second to everything else in my life and that needs to change starting yesterday. I was lucky to establish an accountability partner (someone who makes you accountable to yourself) last Tuesday that I am sure will keep me going in the right direction when I know I will want to forget it just for today. I can’t though. It needs to happen EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. I was also lucky to find 2 people that already play the role of my mentor but I finally asked them officially if they would. A mentor is someone who is there to offer you love and guidance and is willing to tell you how it is even if you don’t want to hear it.
2. Find a church close to my house. It has been really convenient to use the distant to my church as an excuse to not get/be involved. I can no longer be uninvolved so I am finally letting the other church go. I am sad because there are some people there that make my happy but I need a place that I can basically ride my bike to if I want to.
3. Run 3 times a week. I decided that I am going to do the Rock ‘n’ Roll half marathon in January (part of my bucket list) with several of the women that I met this weekend. I am going to use the 2 cardio (ugh) days at the gym to run as well as start running a bit at night with my doggie. Miss Maddie needs the exercise.
4. Stop drinking soda. Again. Again. It has come to my attention that I need to write this as a goal every month. I have been a soda drinking fool for the last week or two. It stops today. Again.
5. Make it to the gym every morning (Mon-Fri). I am really enjoying this one (thought it was tough getting up this morning). I am going to start getting up a little bit earlier though. (5:15 instead of 5:30)
6. Finish The Great Purge of 2009 Part II. I need to get going on this one. My house is giving me anxiety. Oy! I am going to devote 20 minutes everyday (at least) to get this one done. I think I am almost to the point that I want to just throw everything away.
7. Start making my own lunch. Everyday I eat tomato soup and a veggie patty for lunch. It costs me about $2.25 every day. I can make a chili or protein rich soup that would last me 2 weeks for the same amount of money I spend in 1. I am starting tonight with a pumpkin chili. Don’t judge the sound of it. It is going to be SUPER yummy. I will post the recipe tomorrow.
Also, I am letting Weight Watchers go. I realized that I have become somewhat too concious of THE NUMBER. I did/do not want to be like that so I am letting WW go. I will be meeting with my trainer for free once a month and I am going to use that as my measurement. Mr. S takes my measurements and body fat at the same time as my weight so I am going to let it be completely about how I feel not weigh. Plus it will save me at least $40 per month. (Yeah!)
In addition to letting WW go, I am letting some of my past friends go. I have one friend in particular that hurt me really bad a loooooong time ago and I forgave them. We have become close again the last couple of months but they hurt me again. Not in a mean kind of way but in the unreliable kind of way. I have too many people in my life that are fantastic to worry about them anymore. A part of this is I am no longer going to my high school reunion this weekend (at least the main event). Instead I am attending a get together with all of the people plus more from this past weekends trip. That sounds like a much more appealing reunion to me.
Thanks so much for your help and let me know if I need to modify any of these in any way to make the goals more attainable.
Kathy
P.S. Here are some SUPER fun photos from the Susan G Komen race for the cure. The one of me on the car is somewhat awkward but too fun to not post. Anyone who wants to join us next year let me know. I will be a much better organizer. I promise!
Mom, you know we all did it for you! Love you!
Here is the great thing about goals: they can change. (I learned that this weekend.) So I am changing your direction as follows:
1. Have quiet time every day. This needs to be just as, if not more than, important to me then my exercise time. It has always taken second to everything else in my life and that needs to change starting yesterday. I was lucky to establish an accountability partner (someone who makes you accountable to yourself) last Tuesday that I am sure will keep me going in the right direction when I know I will want to forget it just for today. I can’t though. It needs to happen EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. I was also lucky to find 2 people that already play the role of my mentor but I finally asked them officially if they would. A mentor is someone who is there to offer you love and guidance and is willing to tell you how it is even if you don’t want to hear it.
2. Find a church close to my house. It has been really convenient to use the distant to my church as an excuse to not get/be involved. I can no longer be uninvolved so I am finally letting the other church go. I am sad because there are some people there that make my happy but I need a place that I can basically ride my bike to if I want to.
3. Run 3 times a week. I decided that I am going to do the Rock ‘n’ Roll half marathon in January (part of my bucket list) with several of the women that I met this weekend. I am going to use the 2 cardio (ugh) days at the gym to run as well as start running a bit at night with my doggie. Miss Maddie needs the exercise.
4. Stop drinking soda. Again. Again. It has come to my attention that I need to write this as a goal every month. I have been a soda drinking fool for the last week or two. It stops today. Again.
5. Make it to the gym every morning (Mon-Fri). I am really enjoying this one (thought it was tough getting up this morning). I am going to start getting up a little bit earlier though. (5:15 instead of 5:30)
6. Finish The Great Purge of 2009 Part II. I need to get going on this one. My house is giving me anxiety. Oy! I am going to devote 20 minutes everyday (at least) to get this one done. I think I am almost to the point that I want to just throw everything away.
7. Start making my own lunch. Everyday I eat tomato soup and a veggie patty for lunch. It costs me about $2.25 every day. I can make a chili or protein rich soup that would last me 2 weeks for the same amount of money I spend in 1. I am starting tonight with a pumpkin chili. Don’t judge the sound of it. It is going to be SUPER yummy. I will post the recipe tomorrow.
Also, I am letting Weight Watchers go. I realized that I have become somewhat too concious of THE NUMBER. I did/do not want to be like that so I am letting WW go. I will be meeting with my trainer for free once a month and I am going to use that as my measurement. Mr. S takes my measurements and body fat at the same time as my weight so I am going to let it be completely about how I feel not weigh. Plus it will save me at least $40 per month. (Yeah!)
In addition to letting WW go, I am letting some of my past friends go. I have one friend in particular that hurt me really bad a loooooong time ago and I forgave them. We have become close again the last couple of months but they hurt me again. Not in a mean kind of way but in the unreliable kind of way. I have too many people in my life that are fantastic to worry about them anymore. A part of this is I am no longer going to my high school reunion this weekend (at least the main event). Instead I am attending a get together with all of the people plus more from this past weekends trip. That sounds like a much more appealing reunion to me.
Thanks so much for your help and let me know if I need to modify any of these in any way to make the goals more attainable.
Kathy
P.S. Here are some SUPER fun photos from the Susan G Komen race for the cure. The one of me on the car is somewhat awkward but too fun to not post. Anyone who wants to join us next year let me know. I will be a much better organizer. I promise!
Mom, you know we all did it for you! Love you!
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Completely and Totally Renewed
I had one of those moments this weekend. You know the one. The kind that you will never, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever be the same after. I went into this weekend empty and hopeless full of hurts from my past and present, from my family, friends, and strangers and most of all hurts from myself. I have talked about hating myself on this blog before but I have really only referred to my physical self. Here is the honest truth: I felt I was worthless, unloveable, and just plain not good enough for anything my ENTIRE life. Over the past several months I have been through more personal trials that I felt a little abandoned by God. Little did I know that there were people praying for me all over the world that I would be able to make myself whole after this weekend. In order for that to happen I had to confront my past and OH! have I. What a blessing these past months of trials have been!
On Friday someone came up to me at lunch and said, doesn't it bother you that the Bible was clear about God's feeling on tattoos? (or something like that I can't remember completely) I reacted violently and it all was I could do to not rip this woman's head off. I quietly responded that I honestly didn't think that God cared about what I looked like. I think he only cares about my heart. I then quickly walked away so I wouldn't add anything ugly. I couldn't shake that situation. I carried it for the rest of the day. I spoke to my sponsor about it and then that night I went to 2 women and asked them to pray over me to get over it. Why was it bothering me so much? I came to realize that she was standing in for every person that had ever judged me. You see I left the religion I was raised in when I was 18. A religion full of people ready to point out all of your shortcoming. Oddly, I have felt emptiness from not being in it for the last 10 years not because I regretted it but because I automatically felt that I was "out of the club". That included my family. Guess what? 2 months ago it was put on my heart to research the history of my past religion. Little did I know I needed to put a period on the end of that sentence before I could start the new my life in Christianity and a new relationship with my family. I came to peace with it on Saturday night. I forgave my family of anything that they said to me that added to that hurt and forgave the church for being everything I thought it shouldn't be. I am completely at peace with that era of my life.
Saturday night was a night of tears. I cried so much that I had swollen eyes on Sunday morning. Why? Because it was also the first time I forgave myself. I forgave myself for all of the things I did or didn't do, said or didn't say and thought or didn't think. What a weight that was lifted off of my heart. Also, at 9:25pm on Saturday, October 17th I forgave my STB. Do you have any idea what that feels like? I let go of him and everything he did to me COMPLETELY. Do you know what they means? I will be 100% whole when my marriage ends. What a gift!
I don't want to say too much more just in case someone reading this has the desire to go on a weekend like this but just know that I feel that my physical journey I am been going through will be completely different after this weekend. Why? because I. LOVE. MYSELF. COMPLETELY. Praise Him!
On Friday someone came up to me at lunch and said, doesn't it bother you that the Bible was clear about God's feeling on tattoos? (or something like that I can't remember completely) I reacted violently and it all was I could do to not rip this woman's head off. I quietly responded that I honestly didn't think that God cared about what I looked like. I think he only cares about my heart. I then quickly walked away so I wouldn't add anything ugly. I couldn't shake that situation. I carried it for the rest of the day. I spoke to my sponsor about it and then that night I went to 2 women and asked them to pray over me to get over it. Why was it bothering me so much? I came to realize that she was standing in for every person that had ever judged me. You see I left the religion I was raised in when I was 18. A religion full of people ready to point out all of your shortcoming. Oddly, I have felt emptiness from not being in it for the last 10 years not because I regretted it but because I automatically felt that I was "out of the club". That included my family. Guess what? 2 months ago it was put on my heart to research the history of my past religion. Little did I know I needed to put a period on the end of that sentence before I could start the new my life in Christianity and a new relationship with my family. I came to peace with it on Saturday night. I forgave my family of anything that they said to me that added to that hurt and forgave the church for being everything I thought it shouldn't be. I am completely at peace with that era of my life.
Saturday night was a night of tears. I cried so much that I had swollen eyes on Sunday morning. Why? Because it was also the first time I forgave myself. I forgave myself for all of the things I did or didn't do, said or didn't say and thought or didn't think. What a weight that was lifted off of my heart. Also, at 9:25pm on Saturday, October 17th I forgave my STB. Do you have any idea what that feels like? I let go of him and everything he did to me COMPLETELY. Do you know what they means? I will be 100% whole when my marriage ends. What a gift!
I don't want to say too much more just in case someone reading this has the desire to go on a weekend like this but just know that I feel that my physical journey I am been going through will be completely different after this weekend. Why? because I. LOVE. MYSELF. COMPLETELY. Praise Him!
Thursday, October 15, 2009
I think I am in Love
Well…with my lower back anyway. I got my tattoo worked on again last night and holy cow! It is AMAZING! It is like Nicole, my tattoo artist, took a Stargazer and placed it on my back. She is so unbelievably talented. Three hours of work well worth it. It brings the total to about 14 hours. I can’t get over how great she is. Email me if you would like contact information for the most talented tattoo artist on Earth, Nicole McCord. (itsallaboutmie@gmail.com)
I received a box yesterday, somewhat randomly. A week or so ago I was talking to a coworker in one of the other offices who mentioned his wife worked for a wine distributor. He said he gets all the free wine he wants. I joked that I need to marry someone who does that because free wine sounds fantastic. He asked what kind I like and said he would ship me some. I thought we were just playing around but nope. The box arrived yesterday with 3 bottles. I can’t wait to try them! I haven’t had any of the brands he sent me. Anyone want to join me?
I am beyond nervous. I am leave tonight for a spiritual retreat called Tres Dias. My friend, Leah, highly recommended it but I am still anxious about it. She will be there so I know at least one person and that helps. I can’t bring a phone or anything that may distract me though. I know no details about what is actually going to happen. She promised me that I would love it and I trust her so wish me luck!
I received a box yesterday, somewhat randomly. A week or so ago I was talking to a coworker in one of the other offices who mentioned his wife worked for a wine distributor. He said he gets all the free wine he wants. I joked that I need to marry someone who does that because free wine sounds fantastic. He asked what kind I like and said he would ship me some. I thought we were just playing around but nope. The box arrived yesterday with 3 bottles. I can’t wait to try them! I haven’t had any of the brands he sent me. Anyone want to join me?
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
I Kinda Felt Like I was Cheating
For like a second but still. I have had the same gal cut my hair for almost 6 years. I followed her from one salon to another but I still wouldn’t let her do my color. (I had a really bad experience when I was like 19 and haven’t let anyone touch it since.) Anywho, I made an appointment with my friend, Sarah, and let her have free rein. I told her to do whatever she wanted both cut and color wise. Wow! Wow! Wow! First, the color is AMAZING! Second, the head massage was beyond compare. I literally almost fell asleep (MUM, we need to talk. Why didn't you tell me it was so great? I would have done this AGES ago). Last, the cut is so super fun! I am such a better brunette. (FFT, do you approve?)
I learned/realized something about myself though. I am a hair pansy. That’s right…a hair pansy. I will wear it any color but when it comes to style I am…how do you say it…boring? Yeah, boring. She styled it super sassy and all I wanted to do was smooth it out. Total soccer mom style. I resisted though (mainly because we went to dinner afterward) and I left it for the rest of the night. Also, Sarah was wearing a super cute headband and I loved how she looked in it. She said that I could totally pull off the big, over the top in a good kind of way headbands and I was like “noooooooooooooooooooooo. Um, noooooooooooo.” Dumb huh? Who cares! She and I are going to go headband shopping next week. I have anxiety already. She also is dying to do a faux hawk on me. Maybe after a glass of wine…or two. Or a bottle. Just saying…
Do you have any quirks like that?
Do you have any quirks like that?
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Can You Keep A Secret?
I’m gonna tell you a secret. I was going to wait until January 1 to say something but I decided that I am going to do it either way so what is the harm is sharing now besides the fact that writing it down kinda makes me want to throw up in my mouth. So without further ado…I am going to compete in a fitness show November 2010. Yeah…yeah…I know it isn’t November 2009 yet but this takes quite a bit of training. I have thought about doing this for years and when I say years I mean almost 8 years. In fact, it is on my bucket list.
Preparation:
1. Get super involved with taking classes at Express MiE again. Part of the show is you have to do a dance routine. I already have a leg up in that department because Express MiE is the perfect staging area to get myself prepared.
2. Find a trainer who can help me properly prepare for the physique portion. I did this one 2 weekends ago and he has already agreed to train me. We will call him Mr. Straightforward or Mr. S for short. He is very direct and will tell me how it is. That is why I picked him.
1. Get super involved with taking classes at Express MiE again. Part of the show is you have to do a dance routine. I already have a leg up in that department because Express MiE is the perfect staging area to get myself prepared.
2. Find a trainer who can help me properly prepare for the physique portion. I did this one 2 weekends ago and he has already agreed to train me. We will call him Mr. Straightforward or Mr. S for short. He is very direct and will tell me how it is. That is why I picked him.
3. Find someone to teach me how to do some basic gymnastics tricks. It is expected that you perform some of these during your dance routine. (which my dance routine is going to be super fantastic)
4. Find someone to help me with my posing. There is a certain way you are supposed to stand during the physique judging that needs to be perfected.
5. Build more muscle. This is where the gym comes in. I am going to the gym every morning and working with weights 3 days a week. I really enjoy this part because it makes me feel strong. I like seeing muscle definition.
6. Spend the other 2 of 5 day at the gym doing cardio (ugh) because Mr. S would like me to focus more on my cardiovascular training. I jogged last week and surprised myself by running 30 minutes straight. I am not pushing that too much because I ride my bike 30+ miles a week and I fixed my mountain bike, Jackie Carano, up so I can start trail riding as well. I need to purchase a bike rack for my car though so I can easily transport it.
7. I will be making my own costume for the dance routine as well as my own suit for the show including doing the stone work. This will become more urgent as the show gets closer but for now I just have them on the list of things to do.
Things that I want to avoid:
1. Becoming obsessive about what I eat. This is supposed to be a fun experience. I do not want it to consume my life.
2. Binging once the show is complete. I will have a very low body fat percentage when I compete and I do not want to overload my body once it is over. I gradually lost body fat and I need to gradually gain it back to a maintainable weight.
3. Taking time off. I have read about a lot of women that take 1-3 months off after a show because they “earned” it. The reality is your body needs exercise no matter what. I may not need to hit it quite as hard but it is still important to take care of myself.
4. I will not base my self-worth on where I place in the competition. This is just for fun and I will not let it determine how I think about myself.
I will be attending the show this November and watching beginning to end. It should be a huge learning experience.
Monday, October 12, 2009
Weekend Whirlwind
So much to do with so little time. This weekend was somewhat of a whirlwind with everything going on. I had my pole class on Friday along with teaching the intro class. I can’t believe how much I needed it. I had a rough night on Thursday and I couldn’t focus on anything all day. What I really wanted to do was ditch my pole class and just lay in bed but I dragged my butt to class. I was so distracted when I got to there. My mind was going in a million directions at once. Thank goodness for the meditation. It helped me become present though I still wasn’t into it especially the dancing part. I have this thing where if I am feeling uncomfortable as a person I am uncomfortable as a dancer. I couldn’t get it together. We were doing some freestyle and my mind froze. Hannah encouraged/pushed me and I broke through it. It felt so good. By the time it got to my intro class I was feeling pretty great. I really have grown to rely on my pole class as my centering for the week. I am glad I have it. What do you use to center yourself?
Saturday brought volunteering for Bountiful Baskets with FFT and MUM and Tour de Fat. What? You don’t know what Tour de Fat is? Well…it is one of the most fun bike festivals ever. I have gotten quite into biking a lot lately and it was so inspiring to see so many people gathered in celebration of one of the things that I enjoy doing. I definitely recommend you add it to your list of things to do next year. By the way, it is free to get in. Free fun…what can be better then that? The picture below is just a very small fraction of the bikes parked outside the festival. They were as far as the eye could see in all directions.
On Sunday I did the Susan G Komen Race for the Cure 5K. We ended up having 7 people on our team and it was amazing. So many people were there. My race number was somewhere around 33,500. That means that there were at least that many participants. You could also attach a sign that said “I race in celebration of” or “I race in memory of”. I raced in celebration of my Mom and was heartbroken when I saw 2 little kids racing in memory of their mom. Kinda puts things in perspective…
Saturday brought volunteering for Bountiful Baskets with FFT and MUM and Tour de Fat. What? You don’t know what Tour de Fat is? Well…it is one of the most fun bike festivals ever. I have gotten quite into biking a lot lately and it was so inspiring to see so many people gathered in celebration of one of the things that I enjoy doing. I definitely recommend you add it to your list of things to do next year. By the way, it is free to get in. Free fun…what can be better then that? The picture below is just a very small fraction of the bikes parked outside the festival. They were as far as the eye could see in all directions.
On Sunday I did the Susan G Komen Race for the Cure 5K. We ended up having 7 people on our team and it was amazing. So many people were there. My race number was somewhere around 33,500. That means that there were at least that many participants. You could also attach a sign that said “I race in celebration of” or “I race in memory of”. I raced in celebration of my Mom and was heartbroken when I saw 2 little kids racing in memory of their mom. Kinda puts things in perspective…
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Question of the Week #6
Where do all of the teaspoons and dinner forks go?
I was doing dishes the other day and I suddenly realized I have 6 spoons and 5 forks. What the crap? Where did the rest go? I don't have a large apartment and I don't have food dishes sitting all over my house. Where do they all go? Is it like the toys in the movie Toy Story where they mobalize the moment I walk away? Seriously...I feel like I should start a Missing Silverware Agency (MSA). Along the same lines why don't they put extras of those in silverware sets? Who really uses the large spoons and small forks anyway?
I was doing dishes the other day and I suddenly realized I have 6 spoons and 5 forks. What the crap? Where did the rest go? I don't have a large apartment and I don't have food dishes sitting all over my house. Where do they all go? Is it like the toys in the movie Toy Story where they mobalize the moment I walk away? Seriously...I feel like I should start a Missing Silverware Agency (MSA). Along the same lines why don't they put extras of those in silverware sets? Who really uses the large spoons and small forks anyway?
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Suck It Up and Stop Being Mean
I hit the wall today. I didn’t want to get up. I wanted to stay in bed for that extra hour and then just head to work like I used to. Do you know what dragged me out of bed? You all did. The fact that I didn’t want to have to write that I let my laziness get in the way of my goals. I know I could have never mentioned it at all but that would be lying by omission. I like the honesty in this blog so I couldn’t do that. Here is the thing though. My workout this morning was unbelievable. I am already sore from it. Moral of the story: sometimes you just need to suck it up and do what you should do not what you want to.
Remember how I posted recently about listening to things that people actually say? Well, on Sunday I met with someone who is training me for one of the items on my bucket list and this person is honest, almost to a fault. We were talking about being divorced and he said something like the following to me, “When we worked together 5 years ago I was in the same boat you are right now. I was distant and calloused too.” All I could do was stare at him. He was right. I have done a great job of closing myself off. I don’t spend nearly as much time at the dance studio as I used to. I have changed a lot of my daily habits that leave me spending most of my time by myself. That comment was followed by this one a few days later, “I know you don’t want to date right now but even if you did you still probably wouldn’t be asked because you are so unapproachable.” Ouch. Both comments came from men so I am thinking that my divorce has a lot to do with it. Guess it is time for an attitude adjustment. I don’t even know where to begin. Maybe by smiling more or not standing with my arms crossed? Crap. Do any of you have any ideas?
Last night I met some lovely ladies for happy hour and then a walk. It was a night filled with great conversations. The main thing we talked about was our bucket lists. I have kinda written about that before but I haven’t written what mine is. Be on the look out over the next couple of days because I am going to post my bucket list.
I can't believe I forgot to write about this. I used my raquetball set last week! I went with my brother and he anailated me. It's a good thing I am no longer a sore loser because I have never been more destroyed in a game then that. It was such as blast! We are going to start playing more regularly. Here's the thing, I am okay with getting rid of the raquetball set. The main reason is it is super old and the requets are half the size as the current ones. We ended up playing with my brother's requets. It was a lot of fun but I hurt my finger. See picture below. :(
Have a happy Friday eve everyone! The feral cat is almost on the loose again…
Remember how I posted recently about listening to things that people actually say? Well, on Sunday I met with someone who is training me for one of the items on my bucket list and this person is honest, almost to a fault. We were talking about being divorced and he said something like the following to me, “When we worked together 5 years ago I was in the same boat you are right now. I was distant and calloused too.” All I could do was stare at him. He was right. I have done a great job of closing myself off. I don’t spend nearly as much time at the dance studio as I used to. I have changed a lot of my daily habits that leave me spending most of my time by myself. That comment was followed by this one a few days later, “I know you don’t want to date right now but even if you did you still probably wouldn’t be asked because you are so unapproachable.” Ouch. Both comments came from men so I am thinking that my divorce has a lot to do with it. Guess it is time for an attitude adjustment. I don’t even know where to begin. Maybe by smiling more or not standing with my arms crossed? Crap. Do any of you have any ideas?
Last night I met some lovely ladies for happy hour and then a walk. It was a night filled with great conversations. The main thing we talked about was our bucket lists. I have kinda written about that before but I haven’t written what mine is. Be on the look out over the next couple of days because I am going to post my bucket list.
I can't believe I forgot to write about this. I used my raquetball set last week! I went with my brother and he anailated me. It's a good thing I am no longer a sore loser because I have never been more destroyed in a game then that. It was such as blast! We are going to start playing more regularly. Here's the thing, I am okay with getting rid of the raquetball set. The main reason is it is super old and the requets are half the size as the current ones. We ended up playing with my brother's requets. It was a lot of fun but I hurt my finger. See picture below. :(
Have a happy Friday eve everyone! The feral cat is almost on the loose again…
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Music Soothes My Soul
Music affects me. There is something about it that just speaks to my soul. There are certain songs that remind me of certain people and other songs that remind me of certain situations. Both good and bad memories come up in the blink of an eye. I love this quality about myself. No particular reason why…I just do.
When I started this past weekend out I was feeling pretty emotionally empty. Just kinda blank inside. At the Women of Faith conference they had an artist singing that I was not familiar with, Ayiesha Woods. For some reason I was kinda annoyed about it because I was expecting Mandisa. Good thing I don’t always get my own way because one of the songs she sang, New Beginnings, spoke to me. The lyrics are below.
And I know you've been through more things than most
And it always seems as though it'll never get any better
But there's something you should know
You're never alone
No matter how it all began
It's not how it has to end cause
I believe in new beginnings
No matter what they say
Yesterday is over
It's over
And though tomorrow can't be promised
Today's a brand new day and love lasts forever
I believe, I believe, I believe in new beginnings
And I know you've been hurt before and you don't wanna try no more
Said you already closed the door to that part of your heart
But you can love again
In time your heart will mend
Before it's all over
You'll be doing fine
I ain't living in yesterday
New beginnings gonna come my way
It's what I believe
And you ain't got to be feeling down
New beginnings are gonna around
Don't you believe
Do you have a song that speaks to you?
When I started this past weekend out I was feeling pretty emotionally empty. Just kinda blank inside. At the Women of Faith conference they had an artist singing that I was not familiar with, Ayiesha Woods. For some reason I was kinda annoyed about it because I was expecting Mandisa. Good thing I don’t always get my own way because one of the songs she sang, New Beginnings, spoke to me. The lyrics are below.
And I know you've been through more things than most
And it always seems as though it'll never get any better
But there's something you should know
You're never alone
No matter how it all began
It's not how it has to end cause
I believe in new beginnings
No matter what they say
Yesterday is over
It's over
And though tomorrow can't be promised
Today's a brand new day and love lasts forever
I believe, I believe, I believe in new beginnings
And I know you've been hurt before and you don't wanna try no more
Said you already closed the door to that part of your heart
But you can love again
In time your heart will mend
Before it's all over
You'll be doing fine
I ain't living in yesterday
New beginnings gonna come my way
It's what I believe
And you ain't got to be feeling down
New beginnings are gonna around
Don't you believe
Do you have a song that speaks to you?
Monday, October 5, 2009
A Happy Fulfilled Life
Everyone wants one, right? I know I do. But how? How do I gain a happy fulfilled life? Here is what society tells us: multi tasking and balance. Wrong.
I attended the Women of Faith conference this weekend and we were blessed to have a special speaker, Marcus Buckingham (he is super hot by the way with a super sexy accent), author of Find Your Strongest Life. It is a book based off of interviewing the happiest, most fulfilled women and finding out what made them that way. Here are some of the main highlights that rocked my world. 1. These women don’t multi-task. What?! Isn’t that what everyone preaches? Multi-task. Multi-task. Multi-task. Here is what research has to say about multi-tasking. When you do more then 1 thing at a time your IQ drops 10 points which is the equivalent of missing a nights rest. Wow. That is pretty extreme.
Funny/sad side story: I am the queen of multi-tasking. I never do just one thing at a time. I watch movies and fold laundry. Do the dishes and cook dinner. Etc... Anyway, last night I was trying to decide which Bible study, of 4, I wanted to do so I took one of them on a walk with me and my dog so I could read it. As I was walking and reading I realized what I was doing. I am so programmed to try to get as much done as I possibl;y can that I couldn’t even take a walk with my dog without adding something “productive”. The second I realized it I closed the book and walked the rest of the way just being with my dog.
2. These women don’t juggle. When you juggle it is more about the act of throwing then catching. You are always throwing things away from yourself rather then catching what is important and should be held onto.
3. These women don’t strive for balance. When you are concerned about having a balanced life it is about maintaining that balance rather then getting the things done that need to get done. Everything has to be perfect all the time in order to maintain balance and we all know that is impossible.
Marcus talked about how women focus too much on their weaknesses. He said that change follows the focus of your attention and if you focus on your weaknesses you become weaker. Wow. I don’t think I like the idea of that. He also mentioned that when you try to make yourself do something that your heart isn’t in (for example, your job) you will not be fulfilled. Case in point? Me (except for the dance studio. I love that).
Not sure what your strengths are? Check out this free test (takes like 3 minutes) that he put together: http://www.stronglifetest.com/. The test asks you a series of questions and then based on your answers tells you what your strengths are.
Mine are the following:
Your Lead Role:
Motivator
You begin by asking:
'How can I raise the energy?'
You are acutely aware of the energy in the room, and you feel compelled to do what you can to elevate it. You do this with your outlook—you are an instinctively optimistic person.
Your best quality:
Your infectious energy
Always:
Step in and take responsibility for the group
Be careful you:
Don’t get sucked dry by emotional vampires
Your smartest career move:
Any job where you’re paid to keep a group of people excited.
Your Supporting Role:
Weaver
You begin by asking:
'Who can I connect?'
You see the world as a web of relationships, and you are always excited by the prospect of connecting two new people within your web.
Your best quality:
Your genuine curiosity
Always:
Trust in your web of relationships
Be careful you:
Don’t push people together who shouldn’t be
Your smartest career move:
Any job where you’re paid to speed up the connection between people.
Both of these are me in a nutshell. No wonder I am going crazy in my job right now. I think it is time to reassess my life. I bought the book and it is my next reading project. Stay tuned.
Questions to ask yourself:
1. How often do you get to do things you like to do?
2. How often do you feel positive anticipation before you start your day?
3. How often do you feel invigorated at the end of a long day?
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Friday, October 2, 2009
You're Like a Feral Cat
One of the guys I work with said that to me not too long ago. He went on to explain that I live for my weekends so much that it is like they have to drag me back into the office on Monday, hose me off, and stick me in professional clothes but once Friday hits I am outta there faster then you can say "have a great weekend". That comment made me laugh then but now I really appreciate the correctness of it. I work and live for the weekends. If I could work 3 - 13+ hour days and be off 4 days in a row I would do it. With a smile on my face. Unfortunately I don't have that kind of freedom in my job. Maybe some day...
On that same note, I have really started to pay attention to what people say to me. Not what I think they mean but what they actually say. I was talking to one of my younger brothers on Monday and telling him about a big goal I have for early next year (you all will find out later about this one. It is going to be awesome!). I finished laying it out for him and ended it with something like, "I am really going to do it. I have to." Do you know what he said to me? Oh...of course not, it was just us and my Mom. Sorry. He said, "I have no doubt." That comment stopped me in my tracks. "What do you mean?", I said. He responded with, "if you say you are going to do something you do it." Wow! It was such a far cry from my "I think I am a flake days".
Then on Tuesday I was invited to happy hour by a girl I know from the dance studio. We got to talking about friendship and surrounding yourself with people that make you feel better about who you are and don't drag you down. She said that is what she is doing right now. She wants positive friends and when she was thinking of people in her life who she considers positive she thought of me. I was so honored to be called that. Positive. Doesn't that have a nice ring to it? We decided right then and there to become better friends. I need those kind of people in my life too. I can't think of a better way to start a friendship then that. We both are looking for more fulfilling relationships. We both know what kind of friendship the other person wants so there is no way you can fall short. I also appreciate that kind of honesty. One thing I have learned about myself is honesty is one of the most important things in the world. Without it there is no trust. Without trust there is no relationship.
I am not really sure where this post is going today except to say to try listening to the kinds of things people say to you. It can tell you a lot about your character as other people see it. Maybe just maybe I may start to believe in myself or think of myself as much as other people do.
Have a great weekend!
On that same note, I have really started to pay attention to what people say to me. Not what I think they mean but what they actually say. I was talking to one of my younger brothers on Monday and telling him about a big goal I have for early next year (you all will find out later about this one. It is going to be awesome!). I finished laying it out for him and ended it with something like, "I am really going to do it. I have to." Do you know what he said to me? Oh...of course not, it was just us and my Mom. Sorry. He said, "I have no doubt." That comment stopped me in my tracks. "What do you mean?", I said. He responded with, "if you say you are going to do something you do it." Wow! It was such a far cry from my "I think I am a flake days".
Then on Tuesday I was invited to happy hour by a girl I know from the dance studio. We got to talking about friendship and surrounding yourself with people that make you feel better about who you are and don't drag you down. She said that is what she is doing right now. She wants positive friends and when she was thinking of people in her life who she considers positive she thought of me. I was so honored to be called that. Positive. Doesn't that have a nice ring to it? We decided right then and there to become better friends. I need those kind of people in my life too. I can't think of a better way to start a friendship then that. We both are looking for more fulfilling relationships. We both know what kind of friendship the other person wants so there is no way you can fall short. I also appreciate that kind of honesty. One thing I have learned about myself is honesty is one of the most important things in the world. Without it there is no trust. Without trust there is no relationship.
I am not really sure where this post is going today except to say to try listening to the kinds of things people say to you. It can tell you a lot about your character as other people see it. Maybe just maybe I may start to believe in myself or think of myself as much as other people do.
Have a great weekend!
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Dear October #1
Dear October,
You. Are. Amazing. It is only your first day and already you have changed so much. When I was driving to the gym this morning I actually had to roll my window up a little bit due to the chill in the air. I love it! Anywho, you and I have a lot of work to do. September did really well so you have a lot to live up to. Here are my expections of you. Please note that these are what I would like to get done but I will not be angry if for some reason they do not happen.
1. Make it to the gym every morning (Mon-Fri). This one is super important to me. It takes a long time to establish a habit so I need to work extra hard on this one. So far I have made it everyday since I started last Friday. That makes me happy but the first week is always the easiest. It is the time where you are excited and motivated and enthusiastic. Then reality sets in and you realize you are giving up at least 1 good hour of sleep every morning. Is it really worth it? That answers is and always will be Yes. Please remember that because when I am in the mood to stay in bed I need you to help drag me out.
2. Finish The Great Purge of 2009 Part II. This has turned into quite a task. To make things easier on you I would like to spend 2 - 15 minute (great advice my Mom has given me on numerous occasions) segments everyday going through stuff. That is easy to do right? The main thing I am concerned about right now is getting the dressers completely switched over. I was given this really nice dresser but right now everything is kinda all over the place. It is giving me anxiety. I would like that one resolved by tonight. The rest of it I would like taken care of by the middle of you but again we will just do what we can.
3. Eat less processed food. While doing my food post last week I realized how much processed food I eat. Man 'o' man! I need to do something different. I want to try at least 1 new recipe every week. It doesn't have to be anything spectacular just something easy and healthy. That's not too bad right?
4. Try one new form of exercise. I am kinda leaning towards tennis but maybe not...that is the sport I sprained my ankle really bad doing in high school. I have only played it that one time and it was only for like 10 minutes so I think it counts as new. I'm not sure though...I think I will think a bit more on this one.
There are a few big ones on your list so I feel it best to keep the number down. I hope that is okay with you. Please let me know if you have any questions.
Sincerely,
Kathy
You. Are. Amazing. It is only your first day and already you have changed so much. When I was driving to the gym this morning I actually had to roll my window up a little bit due to the chill in the air. I love it! Anywho, you and I have a lot of work to do. September did really well so you have a lot to live up to. Here are my expections of you. Please note that these are what I would like to get done but I will not be angry if for some reason they do not happen.
1. Make it to the gym every morning (Mon-Fri). This one is super important to me. It takes a long time to establish a habit so I need to work extra hard on this one. So far I have made it everyday since I started last Friday. That makes me happy but the first week is always the easiest. It is the time where you are excited and motivated and enthusiastic. Then reality sets in and you realize you are giving up at least 1 good hour of sleep every morning. Is it really worth it? That answers is and always will be Yes. Please remember that because when I am in the mood to stay in bed I need you to help drag me out.
2. Finish The Great Purge of 2009 Part II. This has turned into quite a task. To make things easier on you I would like to spend 2 - 15 minute (great advice my Mom has given me on numerous occasions) segments everyday going through stuff. That is easy to do right? The main thing I am concerned about right now is getting the dressers completely switched over. I was given this really nice dresser but right now everything is kinda all over the place. It is giving me anxiety. I would like that one resolved by tonight. The rest of it I would like taken care of by the middle of you but again we will just do what we can.
3. Eat less processed food. While doing my food post last week I realized how much processed food I eat. Man 'o' man! I need to do something different. I want to try at least 1 new recipe every week. It doesn't have to be anything spectacular just something easy and healthy. That's not too bad right?
4. Try one new form of exercise. I am kinda leaning towards tennis but maybe not...that is the sport I sprained my ankle really bad doing in high school. I have only played it that one time and it was only for like 10 minutes so I think it counts as new. I'm not sure though...I think I will think a bit more on this one.
There are a few big ones on your list so I feel it best to keep the number down. I hope that is okay with you. Please let me know if you have any questions.
Sincerely,
Kathy
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