The end of the year is quickly approaching. In fact, the day after tomorrow is the last day of 2010. Can you believe it?! It is now the time of the year that I need to re-evaluate my entire life and figure out what I want to focus on for the next 12 months. Wow...12 months sounds like a lot of time when you think of it that way but in reality is just wizzes by without hardly stopping to smell the roses. I set a lot of lofty goals last year that weren't realistic and just plain not that important in the grand scheme of things. This year it will be different. I haven't decided what I want to do and in fact...I haven't committed anything to paper yet. Writing it down makes it more real. I'm not ready for real yet. I'm just in the planning stages.
Speaking to time flying by...I got home today and MAN! does it feel good. I am beyond excited to sleep in my own bed tonight. What is it about sleeping in your own bed that just plain makes sleep 1,000 times better? I digress...I picked Maddie up on my way home from the airport and as we were driving home I found myself looking at her. More than I should have considering the fact that I was driving. I realized she is old. I know I have said that before but I often forget and then this sudden reminder slams me right in my face. Maddie's old. She's 9 1/2. Of course, she will more then likely live for a couple more years but the end is nearing. I can't bear the thought of it. She has been with me through thick and thin. She was there when I wasn't getting along with my family. She was there when I got married and divorced. She, along with me, has had 4 different men a part of her life....3 boyfriends and a husband. She and I were always the ones left to take care of each other. What am I going to do without her? She is my rock on this earth. God hand picked her for me....I know it....
Yes, He did, and don't loose precious moments of joy with her by mourning her loss too soon. I enjoyed my baby 17 years, and there's nothing that will prepare you for the separation, but it's horrible wishing I'd enjoyed her more and mourned her less while she was alive. The Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away, but then she belonged to Him first. You're a good mom.
ReplyDeleteAmen, Judy, Amen
ReplyDeleteJoy in that which the Lord gives to bless your life. Judy is right don't get so caught up in dreading the future that you don't live in the present. Enjoy today with Maddie and BF.
ReplyDeleteI totally know what you mean here. When we had to put my old dog down back in june it was devistating and I can say I cry a couple times a week still. You will never forget her but she will be waiting at the gates for you when you get there someday. Just enjoy the time you have left with her no matter how long that is:) I look at my ohter dog kohanna who turned 10 this year. I got him when I was 20 and he went through a marriag a divorce and a now great marriage a lot sickness and has always been there for me. And yes GOD hand picked them for us.
ReplyDeleteYou guys are all right. I know I need to rejoice in her but I can't help but worry what I will do when she is gone...
ReplyDeleteYou will miss her and continue with your life, richer for having had her in it. And look forward to seeing her again, someday.
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