It's Okay

I had a massive breath through this week. I mean MASSIVE! I've been trying to grow my hair out and felt like now that I am pregnant I should definitely grow it longer for...who knows why. I got pretty far along in the process when I had a little set back over a month ago. In desperation I went and saw someone else. She did an okay job but not like what Sarah does. That appeased me for a little while but ultimately I decided 2 weeks ago that is was time to cut it short short again. I made an appointment and went in and saw Sarah on Thursday. She is so talented!

The first thing Sarah did was to make sure I wasn't making an emotional/hormonal decision. I really appreciated her asking me that. It made me finally vocalize what I had been feeling. I had been trying to fit myself into what I *thought* I should be...being a stay at home Mom that is. Everything from how I look to how my house looks. As I sat there in Sarah's chair I realized I don't want to be that kind of a Mom. I want to be ME but with a baby. I let Sarah decide on everything and let me tell you...she knows me and my style even better than I do. Thank goodness for that. She highlighted it and chopped it off. I had "buyer's remorse" for like a second as I sat there staring at myself. Not because it looked bad but because all of the length was gone. All second thoughts were gone when I woke up the next morning and saw myself in the mirror I finally saw ME for the first time in a long time. It was me. I was so happy.

Later that day I headed to the pool and felt even better when I saw a Mom that looked just like me. Short hair, a bikini and had tattoos. I often feel so out of place with a lot of the other women because I don't look anything like them. I realized that there are Moms like me that exist but even if there weren't it's still okay that I am myself.